I have been a walking talking professing so called Christian since 1978. Wouldn't it seem that I would have learned something about our Lord and His grace, His love, His endurance in relationship. No, not I. I persist in believing that I have rights and deserve. I continue in the thought that I am special and hold special position. Even to the point that when I drive or walk in a crowd the thought I have is, "Don't you people know who I am. Get out of my way." Move aside, don't pull out in front of me. Get out of the middle of the aisle, you're blocking my way.
How long does it take for a person as stubborn and self reliant as I to come to the realization that only by the grace of God do I even exist. Rights, what rights. I should be privileged to be a member of God's family. There are times I look back on my actions and think, "I bet God is really proud of me right now." Is that arrogance or what. I am very fortunate that our Lord even glanced my way let alone the fact that He invited me into his family
A few eeks ago I even had the gaul to complain about a minister of the Lord. This is one of the chosen of God and I think I have the right to criticize or make judgement on his calling. I do feel ashamed but not to the extent that I should. I don't even go to church any more. I think that I can maintain a good relationship with my Heavenly Father and not obey His desires for me. Now that is arrogance.
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